Last night, I laid down and actually didn’t feel like going right to sleep.  This is progress for me.  It means that I am getting more than 4 hours of sleep and am encouraged to do more and read more and learn more.  It’s wonderful.  I’m telling you…me and summer get are tiigghhhtt.  

So what do I do when I’m not ready to sleep?  Since my TV is out of my room, Nick at Night is out of question.  So now, I just read.  I crawl to my bookshelf and grab one of the best books, e v e r.  Sex God, by Rob Bell.  I read the forward last night before falling asleep.  That particular chapter is called, This is about that.  What he means is simple.  First, he’s insinuating that this book is really about that.  And that this (this being sex) is really about that (that being God).  

This blog is taking a quick turn.  Where I am going with it is almost as simple as where he was going with the book.  (And when I say simple I mean, mind blowingly awesome and complex.)  

This - being my photography - is really about that - being?

Beautiful.  That’s the word.  Is beauty something I feel, or something I seek?  Is it something that I am or something that I long to be?  Is it the way I see people or the way that I wish people were?  

Another book I am reading now is Wicked.  I have been listening to the Musical religiously for years now but there is one line in the musical that I love.  ”Was I really seeking good or just seeking attention?”

Okay, so I have about a million ideas going and none of them are seeming to correlate or make any sort of sense, are they?  Let me help.

The idea of there always being a deeper meaning behind things both inspires and challenges me in ways that I will never be able to fully explain.  But it also helps me to have hope.  Hope that there is a reason that I am taking this crazy leap into an industry anyone can do.  Because there is something that sets me apart from the high school students with a digital camera and photoshop elements, or the mom with the DSLR and an attractive child.  

What makes me different is that there is a deeper rooted passion in me that will forever define that was I approach my business.  

I have a passion to live life beautifully.  That doesn’t mean that I always see myself this way.  Nor does it meant that I will always act this way.  But what it means is that I long for this.  I long for the state of contentment to where I help people to see the beauty that lives in the heart and soul of who they are.  

So what does it mean to live life beautifully, anyway?  

You decide.  For me, it’s learning to love the things that make me me.  Embracing my neediness.  Embracing my need to love and be loved.  Embracing my brokenness and the One who’s healed me.  and many other reasons I won’t bother you with. 

Share with me what it means to you to live life beautifully, I’d love to know.

Grace.Peace.Beauty.

Cait